I would say if there’s any verse that has characterized mine and Adam’s relationship, it’s 2 Peter 1:3. This is the verse we speak out loud over the other when either of us feels unsure or stressed.
His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.
Sometimes, it penetrates my heart immediately and I feel at peace, recentered and reminded of God’s provision.
Other times, my mind says, “Okay, God, what is it that I already have the ability to do that I am not doing?”
And sometimes, admittedly, I even think, “How can that apply? I clearly do not have the ability to _____.”
And right now, we are in a season where all three of those thoughts are constantly knocking at the door of our minds. We are working through another transition, and having to make a lot of real-life, future-oriented decisions in the process. We are extremely excited about it all, but trusting God and believing that verse up there, that’s tricky.
Yesterday, while sitting at my desk waiting on an insurance agent to give me a call, I was reminded of a little box my small group leader in college gave me — a “God Box,” it’s called. The purpose of the box is simple: write down what is worrying you, stick it in the box and let God take it from there. Done.
In the year after college, I used it all the time. It was amazing to open it after a few years and see the prayers God had answered. But yesterday, I was resisting that trusty, little box.
“God, I know we need insurance, and I know you care, but unless you can change the effective on date and call the insurance company, then I think someone else is going to have to take this one.”
Silly, right? I’ve always had a hard time giving the practical stuff to God. Those big things – the ones that are obviously out of my control like life and death – those are easy for me to trust Him with. But it’s the little things — insurance, time management, rest — the ones I perceive in my control, that are hardest to give to him. In those moments, I falsely believe that I really do have what it takes to make things happen. And that, my friends, is not what Peter was referring to.
I’m reminded to take a step back and truly let God, believing that where He leads, He provides. Every.little.thing. Even when we don’t even know what it is we need. Today, I am praying for patience and peace, because those fruits are only of His Spirit. I cannot manufacture those things through phone calls, overanalyzing or even rehashing to-do lists with Adam.
Do you have a hard time trusting God with the little things? Or, do you have a verse that you cling to during seasons of change? I would love for you to share.